перерыв

Вот на перерыв пошли в ресторан "перекусить" и все закончилось небольшой попойкой. Небольшой, потому,что мы вернулись и трезво следим за рынком. Но с другой стороны, как начальник отдела, я должен держать дистанцию. Хотя судя по тому, что кроме дистанции с другими, меня мало что беспокоит в этой жизни, я ее выдержал.

новая соседка

У нас на этаже появилась новая сотрудница, такая вкусненькая, я бы ее с косточками слопал. Она такая белая, пухлая, серьезная и вежливая. Сзади все как надо, без костей. И смущается так мило.

back to square one

All of a sudden I feel so bad that I cannot even describe it. I do not see a source why I should feel bad if it is other than general unhappiness at the moment and I do not see the way of getting out of it. What really upsets me is this repeating pattern. It all sucks big time. My therapist say I do not have any clinical condition and it is just depression and me trying to establish myself in the world. Well here it is, I feel a little better for no particular reason now. Mood swings. I am getting old. At the same time he suggests I start my own business as (that is what I think he thinks) I have a problem with authority. Every Georgian has a fucking problem with authority. And how the fuck am I going to survive if I start my own business. I envy so much Natalya or that girl with the broken toe. They have something that attracts other people to them. For starters, they write about their problems in such a way that you want to help them, give support or something. People crowd around them because they feel better about themselves next to them. Ah shit. What the hell. Who is gonna crowd around me when I do not trust anyone? Anyone who shows genuine interest in me, gets clear "What the hell? Do not enter" or "Кирпич" sign on my face.
Well, enough whining. I might go fishing tomorrow to Zhinvali reservoir. Good. Watch out, fishes, Captain Z is coming. Oh, and my apartment will be ready at the end of this month. What else, let me think... my young brother agreed to help me buy new clothes. As I said, the problem is to buy a suit. And also today I tried to pull some strings to help him find a job. And that is about all I have so far.